Dear You.

This may not be the most creative of methods, but its been the oldest and the one that offers a better choice of words, so it will do. If you feel that this is just another stupid ex-lover's crazy obsession over what is long-gone, don't read what follows.

Well, tomorrow's Valentine's Day. You may be spending it with someone else, or you may not. You may be chatting, smiling, laughing, eating or having fun. But even though I won't be, its Valentine's after all, and I have a few things to say.

Its been this long, I think you're already desensitized to saddening sob-stories and clichéd confessions. After all, all that time I didn't know how to get you back, I trust I must've done more useless and rather stupid things than a lot of other people would in a lifetime. But nonetheless.

I understand you're happy. I've seen you so. You have friends, you have family, you have goals and things-to-do. You're occupied all the time but you're okay with it. You are the one who has everything, and I guess you don't want that changed.

But what if I told you I'd wait when you're busy, I'd make time when you're not. I'd do whatever you wished, because I can change myself from who I am now for that sole purpose of your attention.

Have you ever looked over your shoulder at a person, wondering if that person would look back? I have. Every time I look at you, I'm afraid you won't see me; I'm scared that you don't look back, because every time you do, I want you to see that you're still in my eyes. Every time I just hear you laugh, I don't want to look at you, because the feeling's really kinda terrible.

So please don't think I've given up. All this time, I never have. Because you're the sweetest person I've ever met. You're the nicest person around. You're the only person who is perfect in my eyes, every single part, and you're the only person who I genuinely want to waste the rest of my life with. There are just so many things I don't know how to say to you; you've always been rather cold in response. There are so many feelings I had that I couldn't bring myself to say earlier because I was too weak.

I want to look at you everyday and treasure you from the bottom of my heart. I want to be the one who makes sure that you smile each and every day. I want to be the person who catches you should you fall, and never, ever be the reason for it. I want to hug you until forever ends. And I want to see the sunshine in your eyes, stare right into them and tell you

'I love you'.

And hear your gentle reply, and smile.

I have dreamt day and night, and now I want to wake up knowing that a new day has arrived. I want to live, I want to breathe. I want to love you.

So please don't forget me. It seems like everything had just been a long, bad dream that I've woken up from, and I want to do something because I've come to realize everything. Remember the past; recall every day and know that we cannot relive, but we can revive. Give me a chance to atone for all those mistakes; give us a chance. Please. Say something.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Azazyl

Stench of humanity,
The rot of those fair.
Despair!
Of lost sanity and
Dreams never there.