Ignoring, for now, the fact that I only JUST got home, the exact time now being 8:10, making my total travel time a total of one and a half hours.

And ignoring, for now, the fact that I am due for dinner despite the half empty potato chip tube at my desktop now.

Today was interesting enough. Free period first, guitar all the way. PE, ran 2.4. Was pacing Shao Tong who was extremely pessimistic and evil and started giving up halfway. Heck, I failed by 12 seconds, but it felt good in the end coz I was there for a friend.

I can safely say that RIGE really SUCKS at the moment. For one, the other parts take forever to not even get the notes right. Probably because of the week-long vacation from guitar, and the addition of new Secondary Twos into the ME. Sure, I'm guilty of a bit of that, but I usually make it up double-time by playing super well the next session. We shall see. But at the moment, it sucks.

Take me away.
A secret place.
The sweet escape.
Take me away.

Honestly? I really feel like running away. From here. From everything. I wanna go out to the park and camp there until everything ends. I wanna lock my door and stay there till the earth stops spinning.

I'm so confused. I don't understand at all. Then, what's there to understand? Well sure, its faded. But I like to be nearby. I just feel nice, sometimes.

A tragedy, by humans actions alone?

I cannot understand. I really cannot understand. What could it have been? What happened? Why is it this way? Is there still something there? Is it something that can be saved?

Man, it must feel good to be aware that someone is still smitten with you, huh. That you're more to someone than another face in the crowd of this world rushing past.

I'd bet it does. Lucky you.

What's wrong?

Why have you been keeping quiet all this while?

Why have refused to tell me anything behind masks and unrelated words?

Do you think its gonna help?

Is it so difficult?

Do you really want to see this end?

Huh?

You know this is a problem that can be solved too easily. In an instant. With a word. Either word. Its just so damn simple.

Well.

I really don't understand what is so. Complex about all this. No more excuses. One way or another.

I beg you.


Edit: Figured you probably wouldn't appreciate my online presence so.

Azazyl

Stench of humanity,
The rot of those fair.
Despair!
Of lost sanity and
Dreams never there.